Claim Your Power

[00:00:00] Hi, this is Ruhi and you have tuned into Dastaan-e-Musafirs.

[00:00:14] On this show, we explore poems and stories from my book in conversation with light and

[00:00:19] darkness.

[00:00:20] And this is also where you get to know the inner workings of my personal journey and

[00:00:27] the stories that built me.

[00:00:31] Kuch Roz Pehle, M'a Kalladin Mes Kie Kitaab, Anatomy of the Spirit Padre Ti.

[00:00:37] Is Kitaab Se, one of my major take-away was when she says, if energy is like money, depression

[00:00:45] is like opening your wallet and announcing, I don't care who takes my money or how it

[00:00:51] is spent.

[00:00:53] Relonged depression inevitably creates chronic exhaustion.

[00:00:58] If you don't care who spends your money or how much, inevitably you will end up broke.

[00:01:06] Just so without energy, you cannot support your health.

[00:01:12] This book blew my mind.

[00:01:14] Caroline Mes is a medical intuitive and through her work and workshops, she helps us understand

[00:01:21] the energy system that our body is and how energy is our real currency.

[00:01:28] This reminds me of an old, very ordinary story.

[00:01:33] This story is from my book and it's name is The Day I Became a Sheep.

[00:01:40] A few years ago, one fine afternoon, my dog Hoover and I decided to take a walk.

[00:01:48] You have ever met a dog on a mountain, whose house is full of trails and that is your self-proclaimed

[00:01:58] guide.

[00:01:59] With every viewpoint, every stone, every campsite, you know.

[00:02:04] But the whole night, he will see you in front of your tent.

[00:02:09] You gave him a little biscuit and if you didn't, then he will do the hike with you.

[00:02:17] Anyway, so, like every time we were walking and Hoover led the trail.

[00:02:31] That day it was just us.

[00:02:33] We stopped at our rock right at the edge of the mountain where the valley opens up to a

[00:02:39] windy view off the river.

[00:02:42] I sat down with him, curl beside me.

[00:02:45] Like two people who don't need words, we sat there, bewitched by the dancing trees, the

[00:02:52] valley of shadows and light.

[00:02:54] Soon I was lost in my own questions, my own answers, on search when suddenly a large herd

[00:03:03] of sheep gave us a passing company.

[00:03:06] In the end of this trail, there was a huge black sheep that saw Hoover.

[00:03:14] He took one or two steps towards him and then only saw him until one.

[00:03:22] Hoover started barking aggressively as if he was trying to protect us from an attack.

[00:03:29] As fangs out his barks loud forehead creased, body tensed, the big black sheep on the other

[00:03:37] hand stood calm.

[00:03:40] One barking and the other peaceful.

[00:03:43] This strange duel continued for a while as the rest of the herd and I watched.

[00:03:49] And then the black sheep graciously receded a few steps to join the herd back.

[00:03:57] Hoover kept barking until the herd disappeared at the turn of the mountain trail.

[00:04:04] The stillness of the sheep's face as opposed to Hoover's anger remained photographed in

[00:04:10] my mind.

[00:04:11] When we returned home, a friend of mine was waiting in the garden.

[00:04:16] A strain of worry consumed his face.

[00:04:20] When I walked closer to him, he erupted in a loud argument.

[00:04:25] I've been waiting here a while now.

[00:04:27] Why don't you ever pick up your phone?

[00:04:29] I forgot my keys here.

[00:04:31] What's wrong with you these days?

[00:04:34] His tone reflected Hoover's aggressive barks and fangs.

[00:04:39] Like the sheep, I said nothing.

[00:04:42] I stood there calm and unmoved.

[00:04:45] In moments, my friend's anger subsided.

[00:04:49] And instead he asked me if I was doing fine and why am I so quiet?

[00:04:54] To that I just replied, I'm a sheep now.

[00:04:58] Well, the reason I'm sharing this story with you today is because we have outgrown ourselves.

[00:05:06] Because we have witnessed parts of ourselves die and now is the time to reclaim your power.

[00:05:13] Because we've been too tired for too long because we've given our power away for such

[00:05:20] a long time.

[00:05:22] We give our power away when on others' rhythm we sway.

[00:05:26] When blames become games, oh these power struggles we think we tame.

[00:05:32] What a drained mess we became.

[00:05:34] We give our power away when instead of no, you agree and say if you say so.

[00:05:40] Yes, sir.

[00:05:41] I smile, I please, I say yes because it is so awkward for me to say or even mean

[00:05:48] a no.

[00:05:50] We give our power away when what we can't control slays and what we can takes holidays

[00:05:56] for days.

[00:05:58] In powerlessness, victims we beg, we pray.

[00:06:02] We give our power away when either the past or the worrisome future we obey.

[00:06:08] We can't meet ourselves even halfway.

[00:06:12] When burden at the back of your neck becomes everyday.

[00:06:16] But there's too much to forgive and too little to say.

[00:06:20] We give our power away when instead of growth we choose decay.

[00:06:24] When we survive on crumbs of love or hatred so what that's okay.

[00:06:30] To lay low or stay, to take time is okay but decide to come back to power.

[00:06:36] To come back to the track it's okay to call your power back.

[00:06:40] In our lives, there is something that we believe in power.

[00:06:46] Power could be money or power could be the lack of it.

[00:06:50] I mean more memories, less money.

[00:06:52] Power could be holding it all or letting it all go.

[00:06:56] Power may feel like control or the lack of it for some of us.

[00:07:00] No matter what power means to you, it is a form of energy and that's why my

[00:07:06] mantra for this week is I claim my power back.

[00:07:11] I recall it by forgiving and freeing the past.

[00:07:15] I recall it by dropping the worries of tomorrow.

[00:07:19] I claim my power back in this moment by being who I am, by doing what I can and by creating.

[00:07:27] Most importantly, this moment.

[00:07:30] I am power.

[00:07:32] My energy is my real currency.

[00:07:35] This mantra has helped me get back on my feet several times in life and I hope it helps you too.

[00:07:43] I'd love to hear more from you on that.

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[00:07:53] because we have so much more coming up for you.

[00:07:57] Until then, this is Ruhi signing off.

[00:07:59] Take good care of yourselves.