Pyaare Papa

[00:00:00] Hey everyone, this is Woice with Warikoo, my name is Ankur Warikoo, I cover a lot of things in this English Podcast series.

[00:00:12] Career, relationships, personal finance, success, failure and frankly, something else that comes in the mind.

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[00:00:28] This was the first episode I wrote to my father, to tell you that I have proposed to my PhD program.

[00:00:34] December 2013, I was 13 years old. I was in the second year of my PhD program Michigan State University.

[00:00:42] I was 100% scholarship, I was only a number in my class.

[00:00:45] I would do exactly the same thing that I wanted to do in my life.

[00:00:49] I wrote to my father's PhD in college, to tell you that I am doing this program.

[00:00:55] This is my PhD.

[00:00:57] My father, you are the most successful person in your life.

[00:01:01] I hope that you will be able to sell something present for you.

[00:01:06] I was trying to sell it a lot and I sold it because I knew that this work could be done very well.

[00:01:14] I hope that you will be able to sell it a lot.

[00:01:17] I wanted to give you something that I wanted to give you a lot of time in India, but I did not get it.

[00:01:23] Anyway, the program I am doing is starting from the exam.

[00:01:29] I don't think that you will go anywhere, but if possible, you can do a small celebration at home.

[00:01:34] And I think that I am with you.

[00:01:37] I miss you a lot.

[00:01:40] I feel that I am alone in this place.

[00:01:45] There is nothing else.

[00:01:47] I wish that the family feeling of the house will be able to feel here.

[00:01:52] It is not like I did not try.

[00:01:54] But I do not work.

[00:01:57] I remember that time when we were sitting together, we had dinner and TV.

[00:02:03] Or when we went out of the morning in the evening.

[00:02:06] We had a small party in the sun.

[00:02:08] Every one of us had a house.

[00:02:11] We had a lot of things to do here.

[00:02:14] I know that you are right and you are practical when you say that you have a big thing for my life.

[00:02:21] But I feel that the first time I was thinking about it, it has changed.

[00:02:28] I remember that I was so proud of people who would declare that I will not work with you.

[00:02:34] But now I feel that I am not here.

[00:02:37] And it is not like I want to blame someone.

[00:02:40] I am responsible for this.

[00:02:42] When I came here, I was very excited.

[00:02:44] I used to see everything from excitement.

[00:02:47] I used to leave you and leave you and leave you.

[00:02:50] I used to be very difficult.

[00:02:52] But I did not do it.

[00:02:54] Because this was the thing that I wanted to do the rest of my life.

[00:02:58] But I did not lie to myself in the day and day.

[00:03:04] I felt that I am hurting myself.

[00:03:07] It is very difficult to say the truth.

[00:03:10] It is very difficult every day to live with lies.

[00:03:14] I have to accept that I do not want to see the same emotions that I had before.

[00:03:25] I was just a little scared.

[00:03:28] And that is why I am here.

[00:03:31] I feel that I have changed.

[00:03:34] But I tried very hard.

[00:03:36] The problem is that maybe I tried so hard to feel that people started liking me and I didn't like it.

[00:03:43] But it is not the truth.

[00:03:45] I did a great job here.

[00:03:48] I had a great time in class, I had a great time in the morning.

[00:03:51] I am very happy with my professors.

[00:03:53] I know that I am very happy with this.

[00:03:57] And I am not happy, dad.

[00:04:00] I am wrong in the evening.

[00:04:02] Maybe I am not saying anything.

[00:04:04] But the last two or three years of my life, the great change has changed.

[00:04:08] I used to think that I want to accomplish what I want to do.

[00:04:14] I used to think that I would not join a astrophysicist.

[00:04:20] But gradually I realized that maybe I was wrong.

[00:04:23] I saw that you guys have worked so hard to me, given me this life.

[00:04:30] I have given you so much effort and effort to me.

[00:04:36] I have made myself a great job.

[00:04:39] I want to be with you all.

[00:04:41] I want to come back to a family when I am back home.

[00:04:45] I want you to see your own parents.

[00:04:49] The philosophical is so big and it seems like this might be my new job.

[00:04:57] I want to be happy without my life.

[00:05:00] More than anything else.

[00:05:02] And I want you to be happy too.

[00:05:04] I want you both to give everything that we deserve.

[00:05:09] I trust myself, dad.

[00:05:11] I know my own world.

[00:05:13] I know that I won't die randomly.

[00:05:16] I will do something in the world.

[00:05:19] I will think of the things I would do.

[00:05:22] I will not be able to do it.

[00:05:25] I believe that my life is the most difficult decision.

[00:05:30] I have to take myself.

[00:05:32] I wish I could be with you.

[00:05:34] I am telling you that you are not doing right or wrong.

[00:05:37] I was almost ashamed of asking people to ask for help.

[00:05:39] I was almost ashamed of being accepted to help me.

[00:05:43] But I was the only young girl.

[00:05:45] I was sitting down with the image of myself.

[00:05:48] I used to eat so much.

[00:05:50] Because all this year I was so proud that I could do anything in my life.

[00:05:55] I was so passionate about it.

[00:05:57] And now I was not in my life.

[00:05:59] I felt like I was being angry.

[00:06:01] I was not able to do anything in it.

[00:06:04] But I accepted it.

[00:06:06] I had a career change for many people.

[00:06:08] I had a decision to change my life.

[00:06:11] But I accepted it.

[00:06:13] I was thinking about it all night.

[00:06:16] I thought of myself as a loser.

[00:06:18] I thought of a non-achiever.

[00:06:20] I also thought of it.

[00:06:22] And ultimately I reached this decision.

[00:06:25] I don't know what will happen next.

[00:06:28] I don't know if I should do it or not.

[00:06:30] I just want to know that I want to do it.

[00:06:34] And I will not accept it.

[00:06:38] I am sorry that I was in your age.

[00:06:40] I was emotional and I was in a drama.

[00:06:43] But I thought you should know everything.

[00:06:46] I don't know what you are doing in front of me.

[00:06:50] You are very inspiring to me.

[00:06:53] You have learnt a lot from me.

[00:06:55] I have learnt from you.

[00:06:56] I feel so lucky that you both are my parents.

[00:07:00] I only do one thing.

[00:07:03] I will give you everything that you deserve.

[00:07:07] I am the reason for you all.

[00:07:11] I hope you will trust me in this decision.

[00:07:16] I can assure you that I won't let you down.

[00:07:20] I will only trust you.

[00:07:23] Anyway, I wish you all the best.

[00:07:27] Rats of Love.

[00:07:30] I wrote this letter in English.

[00:07:32] I have translated it into Hindi.

[00:07:34] When I read it, I was very excited.

[00:07:38] I was very happy that I worked on my own bed.

[00:07:43] I was very happy that I got such parents who supported me.

[00:07:48] I didn't want them to agree with me.

[00:07:51] But without being able to agree, they supported me too.

[00:07:54] I was very happy that my self confidence was so much that I couldn't take it back.

[00:08:01] The first time I was sharing this letter to the public, I didn't get any edit.

[00:08:07] I feel like someone might be the one who is willing to help me.

[00:08:12] Those people who are struggling, who are struggling themselves.

[00:08:17] They are struggling themselves.

[00:08:19] They are struggling themselves.

[00:08:21] If you are there, you don't have to accept it.

[00:08:25] I wrote this letter in English for 23 years.

[00:08:28] Today, I have been in 43 years.

[00:08:31] I have shown this letter to the public for 21 years.

[00:08:36] Everything will be fine.

[00:08:39] You will be fine.

[00:08:41] Just trust me on your own.

[00:08:44] Lots of love.

[00:08:46] All the best.

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